Dear Friends,

With me, the night time comes and I really want to sleep but I will get this bad memory and it will snowball into a whole bunch of bad memories...things I shouldnt be thinking about anymore...soon they becoming racing thoughts that I can not control...and then I cant sleep at all...I up and down until finally I come to the computer and try to talk to someone and Im crying over things and Im cutiing to gain some control over something ....to try and stop the thoughts and concentrate on the pain instead. These nights are spent crying and trying to type to get my feelings out of my head and onto the screen....its the best I can do right now My doctor does give me 3 meds for sleeping but on the bad nights the meds dont even work.

Sincerely,

Roxy