((((((((Tamzin)))))))))

There is always a reason why you feel the way that you do. You might not know what it is, but you don't feel that way just for nothing. Anyways, the way you feel is the way you feel, and it matters. You deserve help and you deserve to feel better. I understand feeling guilty, because I've been there too (a lot), but you are not doing anything wrong, and it is a good thing to ask for help when you need it. It is a sign of strength.

Maybe you don't wish for people to come and tell you that they are depressed and miserable. When we care about people, we want them to feel good, not bad. But if one of us or someone else you care about did go to you asking for help, wouldn't you want to help them? It's the same in reverse too.