"I have problems with attacking people. I am much more like a "overwhelming retaliation of force" kind of person. But i might feel like having a personal relationship with my T. I want to know about her. I want for her to care for me. Sue me for wanting to have a beautiful sexy kind woman care for me. I know this isnt the way to go around it. Its like the "You want the oppisite after what you have done"

okay...you are seeing this woman for therapy..for mental health reasons. if i recall you are attending a school that requires therapy as a component of attendance..correct? so..her skill has a therapist has NOTHING TO DO WITH HER PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES.

you stated she is 27. she is probably very nice to you..because that is her job. she cares for you because that is her job and she wants to see you do well and heal and function in the world. i'm going out on a limb and say she probably does not want to date you or become involved with you outside of a professional relationship due to the age difference or the lack of of professionalism it would show. there is a huge difference in what a 15 year old would enjoy socially compared to a 27 yr old. trust me.

you said you have a girl friend. talk to her. concentrate on her. seriously get a male therapist and discuss the issues you have had with this t...your feelings are normal but the obsession and wanting to harm her might be a little extreme.

you don't have to conquer everyone & win at all costs...trust me..that gets old..and eventually you'll come across some bad *** who will beat you into the ground again and again...for what reason?

you have asked for help & gotten a ton of it. read it. listen to it. you said your life full of stress and pain..well everyone's life is...of one form or another...it's how you know you are alive. everyone here has a story.

so take a few steps back, some deep breaths, talk to the girl friend without getting into a fistfight (a whole nother issue) and make some changes...you are 15..almost a man...what you do now will change how the rest of your life goes...think about it....

i wish you luck..and only the best..i wish i had the same opportunity you have now when i was your age..ah the choices i would have made....

stumpy