Hmmm...a good question, MUE! I don't think I can be very helpful, though. My T repeatedly tells me I have trust issues...I do not trust myself..ever. I don't trust my feelings, thoughts, emotions..none of it. I need confirmation from other people before I believe myself! I dont trust my T...there are few people I REALLY trust.
The crazy thing is...and I just keep on trying to keep this in mind...is that even though my T knows that I don't really trust her, she doesn't seem too bothered by it. I have been going for 2 years now, but she just keeps saying that she isn't going anywhere. I think that in itself is huge. I don't really see it NOW, but I think I could. Like, she still stuck with me even when I was wandering around, lost, in circles? That she didn't get absolutely fed up with me? I think it takes time. As much time as you need. And consistency. My T is the same person week to week, as much as I fear that one day she'll be mad or upset at me. So far, she hasn't. Yet...I STILL can't really trust that. Weird, I know.
Hang in there! If you think group is helping you, just go. That is all I do. I just go. Most times I wonder why...but I just have to have some trust that it will lead to a more positive end.
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