He claims it's erectile dysfunction due to his diabetes, but all I have to do is look at my fat body in the mirror, and I know the real truth. I wouldn't want sex with me either. If it was all him and not me, he could at least touch me sometimes without using the part that doesn't work.

He never approaches me. The only time I ever get anything is when I approach him.

This morning, I asked him for it. He was on the computer and complained that he had just sat down, can't he finish his game first? This doesn't sound like something a man would say if he *wants* his wife. And I don't want it to be just some chore he has to work into his schedule because he's obligated.

It very much reminds me of the time I asked a man in a nightclub if he wanted to dance with me. (Here again, they never asked me, I always had to approach them.) He looked me up and down and told me to come back later, when he was drunk. That way, he'd have an excuse to give his friends if they saw him dancing with me. I figured if he had to be drunk to dance with me, forget it.

I know he's not seeing anyone else. He comes right home from work. But obviously my husband would rather play a computer game than have sex with me. Maybe I should lose weight to make myself more attractive to him. But then, he's overweight too, and he's constantly offering me food. Ten minutes after I turn it down, it's "Are you sure you don't want any?" And, I've been trying to lose weight since I was 8 years old. No matter how little I eat (sometimes to the point of fainting) or how much I exercise (often to the point of pain) I don't lose weight.