Maybe. As I was reading this thread I was wondering if you have had doubts about the sincerity of your T for the entire time you have been in therapy or if this is a rarity.

Perhaps she didn't phrase it quite the way she meant for it to come across. Sometimes I say and post things and later think, I could have explained that better if I had said... No way for me to know what she meant or didn't.

Also - I was very depressed and suicidal for several years. It was a difficult time that I thought would never improve. When you are in that emotional darkness you cannot see it changing. That is horrible. It has taken me quite a few years and countless hours of therapy but today in 2010 I am content and happy to be alive. Still stressed but happy. I hope that you can find your peace.