bloom - pharmy won't get upset/angry with me, he's just one of those lovely people who is super concerned (and very play by the book). i often feel like i need to put on a happy face for him when i go in, because he so wants me to be feeling better.

i ended up sending a txt to austin-t, he said he will call me tomorrow to schedule an appt next week. i dont really want to talk about the depression stuff, more just some stuff i need cleared up: why he won't talk about suicide and if he really is ok with me continuing to see him.

aaah, feck, my parents are yelling at each other again. makes me go head-fuzzy.

in kind of nice news i got head hunted for a different uni/hospital today. so if my current job goes bottom up i can transfer there in march. also my supervisor has given me research to start doing, and i always do better when i can keep my mind occupied. having summer holidays (with nothing to keep my mind whirring) typically sends me into the abyss.