Saw my T today. She says I definately have many of the ptsd symptoms. We discussed my dad, and I told her how I have flashbacks and in them I am not 'me', I am watching me in the situation and its like I am watching the whole thing play on a screen. I told her that I know i was scared/angry etc but when I think about it, I have no feelings that come up. She told me its called disassociation. She believes that is why I am having so many problems now because my husband leaving is triggering and I am feeling it. I don't like it, because now I don't know if what I am experiencing is from then or from now, and how to sort through all that.