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Originally Posted by zooropa
 MUE, I'm sorry you're hurting so much. I know the place you are in, I've been there so many times. Just wanting to hide from the world, and for me a lot of that comes back to not wanting to be hurt or abandoned again. When I am in that place I withdraw from everyone and everything, as a defense mechanism.
I'm glad you are still posting here and I hope you'll continue to do so even if you don't feel like it. You're important here.  |
Thank you, zooropa....
I don't know how I got here. How did I get back to this horrible place? I told my T last week that I felt myself sinking...and here I am. UGH.
He responded to my cancellation e-mail saying that he was sorry I wasn't feeling well and he'd put me down for next week. I responded that I wasn't sure about next week, that I'm not sure about anything right now. He said, "You are in the book. I will see you Tuesday and Thursday unless you want to come in sooner."
Wow, such words of encouragement.
I haven't been to work in two days....I don't know if I'm going to go tomorrow. My daughter will be home in a few minutes, and I don't know how I'm going to put on a happy face when all I want to do is hide and cry. I hate this. I hate it with every ounce of my being. I just don't know how things got this bad and how to get out of it!!!
