((((MUE)))) I'm glad you were able to get at least a little sleep last night, and so glad that you are taking steps to reach out for help. I know how hard that can be when you feel as low as you are. I know you said you emailed T, can you call him? Even if he is usually off on Fridays, is it an option to call and leave him a message, give him an idea of where you are at and that you need his help?
Keep reaching out to us here, you obviously have a lot of support and concern here for you.