This is how I feel. I do everything, well close to everything, right, to make the man feel loved. I try to do whatever it takes to not disappoint or let him down. So, if he does something to let me down, it is hard to trust him again, or to get over it. I imagine the guy perfect for me would not let me down, or it would happen very few times, if it had to. I have a hard time trusting becasue I am scared to get hurt. I have been hurt so much before, you'd think I'd be stronger. Well I am strong, very strong, until I fall in love....then any little thing brings back the pain and horrible feelings from being hurt in the past. And I am even on good terms with the people who hurt me in the past. So what is going on?
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Originally Posted by bloom3
it sounds a bit like you are idealizing love. you use the word "perfect" twice in your post and it's a part of your username. maybe you are pushing the guy away so as to not have to be let down when you find out they are not perfect and the relationship won't be all you imagined or hoped for? unfortunately, there are no perfect people so we will be let down at some point. but sometimes reality can be pretty darn good too.  |