My job requires me to disclose every dr visit I make and an admission of depression or anxiety renders me medically disqualified for duty. I like my job and quite frankly it is the only thing that gets me out of bed--there is no way I want to jeopardize it. I've recently had something of a breakdown--life seems bleak and not worth living. I've never felt like this before--it is completely painful and the thoughts i'm having really frighten me. It is especially bad in the morning--I cant sleep past 6:30 and I lay awake thinking about terrible things. I've been taking a ton of supplements to try to maybe help replenish serotonin. I've also been seeing this nutritionist who I'm growing wary of--he seems only interested in selling me body building powders. Has anyone had success with any of these supplements: Piracetam, Theanine, SAM-E, Picamillon, L-Dopa, Tyrosine, 5-HTP, Rhodiola. Does anyone know of anything else I can try before I throw in the towel and start seeing a dr. (I'll have to lie about it and will risk my job and pension).