Actually I'm not sure if that's how I feel; and that's the problem. With multiple diag's and life in general, well today I really don't know what I am feeling. It can change from one minute to the next. I wonder if I am a volcano that one day is just going to erupt. I just want to be me, but that isn't even correct because I don't even know who 'me' is anymore. How do I figure out what I am feeling?