I feel the exact same way. Everything you wrote.
I feel like people just don't like me. I try to be myself, I try so hard. My boyfriend thinks I'm crazy when I say stuff like that, but when we hangout with his friends I try to not think they think I'm boring or dumb or not funny but then I convince myself throught the night that I am boring and they don't like me cause that's how it looks and that's how they act.
I don't know what to do I'm literally going out of my mind