Ok, so session last night seemed to go well. Feels like just a relief to let some of this madness out.
But, this morning woke up still unsure. Still feeling doubt. Not that I thought it would go away over night...I mean, I know it is going to be a process. But, I thought I would feel better then I do. So, I am angry. I want to just feel relief.
My whole body aches like it was hit by a Mack truck. It is all emotional drain.
I want help. I need help. I promise to listen to my T.
But, in the hours by myself...in the time that I have only my thoughts...what do I do?