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I am falling apart and while doing this I seem
to be destroying all relationships with my friends
I do not mean to,at the moment I am homeless
I have somewhere to stay but yet am homeless
everyone tells me to go back to Queensland you
know nurses doctors and friends but I cannot admit
defiet like that and anyway I like it here.
But how do I stop this merry go round ride I am on
it has taken around 4months for me to get someone to
take me on in the mental health scene here
I have had a couple of one to two day stays in the hospital
would that is meant to achieve I have no idea,I am
begining to wonder if I am at this moment why I am acting
the way I am even the lady I am staying with has had to take
my meds and hide them from me,because I simply cannot be
trusted not to take to many of them.
My daughter and her antics are not helping any she is playing the push pull game.
If only she would go to therapy it would save her yrs
of heartache I feel at any rate.I made a very big mistake
I asked a friend to borrow $30 to pay an i.o.u taxi fare
and before the day to pay it came I had spent the money
now I know I told her but I just cannot remember what
it went on.Sometimes I simply do not understand me and
the things I do.
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"Look at me, I'm a tangled puppet--I might be a mess, but I sure can survive."
--4 Non Blondes
"We don't create a fantasy world to escape reality, we create it to be able to stay."
--Lynda Barry
"Years Teach Us More Then Books"
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