I originally drafted this on sj's thread, but before I posted it, I realised it probably wasnt appropriate (or supportive perhaps although I wish nothing but good things for everyone here)
So I am starting my own thread.

This thread makes me so sad. I am sorry to make this about me but it really does seem that most doctors and therapists in the UK do NOT care about their patients.

I think maybe some of you in the USA don't realise how "lucky" you are..... to even be still alive and able to post on here. This is NOT directed towards anyone here, it is MY opinion. It is just that, despite what a lot of doctors in the UK seem to think...... WE have feelings too, we hurt too.... but it is harder to express our hurt as we have almost NO valuable or real help.... however hard we try. It seems like we have to literally rip ourselves into shreds to get ANY help.;... and then we are labelled and condemned

Also, as I was labelled as having "Avoidant Personality Disorder" ... which is NOT "treated" at all by the "National Health Service" in the UK ..... some might say it is an achievement for me to even post here. (If you look back at my very early posts here.... someone bumped one up just the other day..... they generally disclose almost nothing about me, so there is some progress right there. I too have to hold onto hope, although it often slips right through my hands and I am back in the black pit and struggling with dark and destructive thoughts once again)

sj, if I am still here and trying, and I often wish I wasn't .... I belive you can get through this, and survive and even flourish

Although this thread has "made" me sad, I also thank you sj for the way you verbalise what you are going through. There is no blame towards you from me, or towards anyone here. That is not my style. I know we are all struggling so who am I to condemn or judge my peers (or to judge some as worthy of my support and "caring" while others are not..... which is exactly what many UK doctors and therapists do ...)

My best to all,
Fuzzy

PS I feel scared now I have posted this and as if I have done something "wrong"