thanks w i. Youve given me some stuff to think aboit. I feel at the end of the road and like Ive had enough. Im really ashamed of all the calls but I know that when I go to therapy they will all expect me to do the explaining. I just want to lie down and give up. Why am I such an idiot. Why cant I control myself. Why do I act like such a fool. Im feeling overwhelmed and alone.

Im feeling lonely and need some care. Tonight is the agreed night to call my therapist and Im humiliated becasue we have been compulsivly calling and hanging up all week. I wish I wasnt around sometimes.
Im feeling sorry for myself. Im just so out of control right now.



Audrey