same here, troubled heart. it's the reason i've lost connection with all of my highschool friends. (except one, sort of, but it's because she got pregnant like me so we had a lot to talk about, a lot to go through together.) I avoid social situations because I assume I'll bore the **** out of them and then they'll never want to hang out with me again, word will spread, and everyone will think that about me. Whereas.... if i never hang out with them then i avoid that chance of ever possibly happening. LOL i'm crazy, you see?

whats horribly sad is that i found out that now they talk crap about me because i never want to hang out.... so they really did like me before.... and now i'veended up ruining things for myself.... it really hurts to know that i did this to myself and now im a hermit... who talks tomore people on the internet than in real life.