WhoamI,
I'm sorry to hear how things have been going for you. It sounds scary and out of control. It seems like there are multiple issues for you to deal with and I'm sure it must be overwhelming.
I think it's good that you have a counseling appointment. Try to be as honest as you can about everything. It might take time to sort things out. Your children need you so I am glad you are seeking help.

darkrunner