Finished attending the 5th meeting of 6 to decide about staying at OA.

Have been having an internal issues about being a 'good' person or a 'bad' person. It affects our overall body in that when we eat we feel like a bad person and when we don't eat we feel like a bad person. Where the heck did this rule in our head come from.

Well, somebody at OA gave us a most beautiful phrase we had never heard before. It goes like this:

Out beyond 'good' and 'bad' there is a field. I'll meet you there.

In other words I/we are not alone in this battle of eating. We have each other in our group.

I know this isn't DD stuff but we knew you'd figure out that we have several alters with this issue and well even though I am telling our group about our 'stuff' (parts) we are feeling a little disallusioned about some of the later looks but we be ok...nothing new

I told them we are a different kind of person not 'bad'.

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