Ive been depressed for about 4 or 5 years since I was 10 but I told no one because at first I didn't understand it. Im 15 in 2 days on the 19 and I though my dad was depressed but never actually knew...Until today. He was talking to my grandpa and he was talking about being depressed and taking medication for it. That broke my heart so bad. Ive been a SI for 2 1/2 years and Im in so much pain knowing that half my family is depressed. Ive thoguht of SU more and more over the past month and almost did it, I would have if I wasnt at my moms. She didnt have what i needed. I am very nervous because now that I know my dad is depressed I feel I can tell him I am and about my SI and depressiom but I don't want to tell him because he's depressed I don't want to make him feel responsible even though truthfully he is partially responsible. But I want help desperately because I know fior shure that im going to do somehting stupid and soon and Im partially afraid. HELP ME!!! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO HERE!