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Originally Posted by darkrunner
Vickie, your encouragement means a lot to me.
One thing I'm afraid of, is that if I start facing the fears I will spiral downward and go back to using a lot of the bad coping mechanisms (SI, eating disorder, alcohol, sui). I'm at a place where I am functioning pretty well right now, and I have to be ok for my family. I know I could 'just do it' --- but then I don't know how I would handle it. 
So...when you did it, did it make things worse for you? How did you handle that?
Amante, I'm sorry you deal with this too.
Like you, I have had many relationships become very strained because of it. They just don't understand, and they think I am being unreasonable. Unfortunately what I am avoiding used to be a huge part of my life. So I have been left completely empty and direction-less.....like I am a shell of the person I used to be.
Thanks for understanding, Amante.  |
I feel for you, relationships are very hard to hold in place when you are suffering with PTSD, I've had my husband say some unreasonable and outlandish comments to me, although he's very supportive most of the time, they crack too some times. I've had an eating disorder too, and it raises it's ugly head every now and again when my eating is out of control.