Amanda,
Welcome to PC!

I hope you find the support you are looking for.

I'm sorry about what happened to you.
It's sounds awful. Try not to be hard on yourself. I'm sure you are doing everything you can for your children. They are lucky to have a mom who cares so much.
I am potentially facing litigation for my situation (unless we can reach a settlement soon), so I understand your anxiety about it. But you are doing the right thing and your strength in pursuing it will prevent it from happening to someone else. You should be proud of yourself.