Thanks Lyn and Darkrunner. your kind words are touching.

I wish I'd have found this forum 3 years ago, but it's good that I've found it now.

Any settlement could never be enough for suffering with the mental end of it all. The funny thing is, the surgery is easier than dealing with lawyers. The hardest thing is being judged by people, losing friends over it and everyday people not understanding what you are going through.

Have either of you completely let yourself go? I can barely shower daily, don't wear makeup anymore, I feel 60 and I'm only 42. This has aged me so much.