LynD, all of this is so hard--I'm sorry you have to go through it. There is no way around. It's painful and it won't stop being painful soon, but gradually over a couple of years (2-3 yrs is typical for divorce, I have been told). My divorce was final in December and I am so glad to have it behind me. We went through the process fairly slowly so I have grieved a lot along the way. Takes a long time to grieve. It helps to let tears out. What really helped me a lot was having a really good therapist for support and guidance. He provided a safe place to go to cry.

There is some kind of court document you can file to get temporary support, until the divorce settlement is reached. Maybe you have already filed this. "order for temporary support" or something like that. If you file that, be sure it is realistic--do not underestimate your expenses/budget. Sometimes the temporary order of support is used as a basis for the final settlement, and if you ask for too little in the temporary order and then find out your expenses are actually way more, then it might be hard to increase the amount.

Good luck.