{{{{{{{{{{{{{tamzinrose, my sweet girl!}}}}}

Your situation takes me back to when I was much younger; when I used cigarettes to burn my arms as a way of control and/or release. You talk about other ppl having reason to write & you don't? It's like the burning; I burned as a release - to get rid of the pain - I burned when I felt so "numb" I had to burn to make sure I could still "feel".

I am assuming that's kind of really like you had a "purpose" and "times" when you don't to write. Others need to hear about your good coping times, as well as your low ones.
We learn from each other around here.

Chin up! peace, dayzee9