Thanks for the energy folks; but I've lost too much blood; I yesterday I found out I have a small hernia; today I found outI have s small tumor near in my near right eye temple/brain.............the specialist took an entire drug history all the way back to cocaine & acid at age 10 -- now he has to consult other doctors b/c they are nervous b/c my brain cells are so fried & it's a 8 hour surgery, they're nervous.

All that cutting, burning , etc. over the years just to cope, just to get people to understand that I needed better coping skills.....so instead the doctors just medicated me heavily so that my husband had to lead me around & feed me drugs during the day....ECT's.....go home, I pick up the blade & try to cut out of deperation, I needed release from that horror movie called "life".....now, I've been cutting to release big time..........NOW, the doctors all want to cut me...........what do you say to that?.......Bye!

Peace to All Who Have Entered here; DAYZEE9