not a weird question at all.

When T is trying to make me understand something, or if I am angry and ranting (both of which happens fairly often), I have no problem looking into her eyes. When I am teling her funny or not-hard things I sometimes look at her, sometimes at the leaves on the tree just outside her window.
When I am telling her hard things I can't look at her, sometimes I realize that I'm looking at the couch across from me and think about hiding behind the big pillow there. Or I look over at the clock and get anguished at what it tells me.
and when I am very upset, I look down. No way I could meet her eyes at those times.

T's still moving into a new office and they haven't given her a desk yet (!) so she keeps a lot of file folders piled on the floor by her chair. These are for different clients (I asked once) and I can't help noticing that some are thin and some are very full, and wondering which one is mine LOL...........