DangerMagnet, I am so sorry to learn of your suffering and your pain.

I think that you mentioned that it helps you to be able to talk about the rape. I'd like to encourage you to contact RAINN (Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network), as Sky suggested. I think that at RAINN you will find people who can listen and accept and understand.

You can call them at 1-800-646-4673. You can also speak with them online, they have an online hotline. Check out http://apps.rainn.org/ohl-bridge/.