Just be glad you have a man. I finally found my soulmate.. a person I feel something so strong for I've never felt for anyone.. he told me he loved me so much and would love me til the day he died. Everything about our meeting was so magickal, it blew away every other relationship I've ever had with anyone. Unfortunately he is polyamorous and married and could never understand my emotional needs and we couldn't make things work or ever come to a common understanding about anything. He turned around and stabbed me in the back.. slept with his "friend" because I was a bit distant for a week, then took his wife to hawaii which was a trip he'd gotten for me.. told me he could never love me because of the depression I suffer from (mostly because of him and people like him who have no integrity who I can never count on for ****) and I can't accept his wife... backstabbed me and deserted me. Now I'm so hopeless, I have no faith in humans anymore or anything, I just want to die.. Life seems so meaningless and empty. I'd had enough bad experiences already.. this just topped it off. I'm not alive anymore, I'm so dead inside. I'm losing my sanity.. I have no one and no hope.

So just be glad you have a husband. Be greatful for what you have. Some people are not so lucky. It sounds like such a petty thing than what I've always had to deal with. I'm considered very attractive and seem to have everything going for me, but men just want to **** me.. they never give a damn. They're so eager to get in my pants and act like they're so crazy for me, then turn around and desert me in a heartbeat. They never care about me, my feelings. I am alone and have no one, no family, no true friends, nothing.

Just be glad you have a husband. Just be glad you have someone who loved you enough to marry you and be true to you. Just love him and be glad for him and greatful you have each other. Don't fuss over the little and petty things. Sorry to not give you the answer you wanted, but just.. seriously.. You don't know how lucky you are.