The only reason I did it is because I was protecting myself and felt that I shouldn't be touched at all. Meaning upset in a good way. I did apologize and I won't do it again. I will try and say now. But It's not easy being the middle kid here!

My mum loves my younger brother, my dad loves his first real daugther which is my half sister and well I have no one really except super teddy, I know he's not real and I know that I'm a bit old to have a teddy bear, but I don't care. Knowing that he's the only one who listens to me and is always there. Even my cat has someone which is me to care for. Don't know what happend to my thread when I was gone. Yet alone my most saying words at home is.... "What did I do?" .... "I can't help it!" etc... I'm fed up. Can't wait to move out when I'm 16 years old. I do like my family but there's no changing the way they act towards me because I'm like this. My mum has been very emotional abuse towards me and My dad has been pshyical abuse to me. I can't stand to be near them when they hurt me and I can't help but fight back or hide. Maybe I should just let it go....
It's not like they will never know how much I wanted to talk talk to my mum with out being judge or have a caring father who doesn't critize me most of the time. Im the odd one out. The least favourite child, the one who is ungreatful for stuff. I don't deserve anything!