First off..Thank you EVERYONE! Reading these helped me a little.. but, things still aren't getting better. I still have 8 days till my appointment (and thats not the appointment for my meds) and I'm not sure if I'm gonna make it. 2 nights ago I got very depressed..long story...and SI'd & drank until I passed out. I don't know what to do. There are so many mood swings and I'm sick of it all. I want to be able to make a decision. Right away not wait. and wait...I don't wanna kill myself but, I just think that people would be better off without me sometimes. I feel like I ruin everyones life. I have destroyed my life and marriage and I need help. I'm so stuck between leaving my husband or staying and I can't for the life of me make a decision. So, do you think I should wait 8 more days...or go to E.R. tonight?