Okay, so I already tried to post this once, but I don't think it worked. if it did sorry. First, I wanna say thank you to all of your advice. Second, I have 8 days till I have my counseling appointment (not for med.s). I don't know if I'm gonna make it. Things are getting worse. I slept the whole day away today and 2 nights ago I got to depressed I cut my wrist. I haven't got that depressed in a very long time. My husband thinks I should go to the hospital but, I'm in the middle about it. My oldest sons birthday is on the 31st and I don't wanna miss it. And since I'm the only one working right now I don't wanna lose any hours. But, I can't keep being destructive. My mood swings are getting worse, but I haven't had another blackout...maybe I haven't had a trigger I don't know. But, I'm glad I haven't because that really scared me. It really seems like the only time I'm REALLY depressed is when I'm around my husband..but, I have no where else to live right now. So my question is do you think I should wait it out for 8 days and longer than that to get on some meds.. or go to the E.R. tonight? & Thank you again to everyone!