For me I'm sinking into a major depression for the first time in a long time. I sleep 15 hours a night and although I'm 28 years old I have to force myself to get out of bed the rest of the day because I have so little energy. It takes everything in me just to get up and go to the bathroom. It hurts just to be awake. I go for days ithout bathing or brushing my teeth because I just don't care. I wouldn't attempt suicide again (I've tried 3 times) unless my mom died but most of the time I wish I were dead. I abuse substances to cope but they only help temporarily. I have long periods of sobriety where I'm even more miserable than while using. I'm so sick of the exhaustion. There's really a lot that I want to do but can't for that. I want to write and paint as therapy but my mind, like everything about me, is so slow and depressed that I can't think.
What is depression like for you?
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