I have been engaged 3 times, one fiance cheated, one died in an accident, married to the third 19 years, separated 7, have two children, and I find that I can't feel connected to anyone. I don't even feel connected to my therapist and when he tries I just go into myself, and honestly I feel overstimulated around people. My head feels full of static and it feels like everything is dark. I've been like this for at least 5 years. People feel painful. I am trying to feel good with people but I feel fake.