Buddie,

I am so sorry for what has happened. It is not your fault. Know that you are not alone and that your reaction to this horrible situation makes sense, even if no one around you understands. Talking in this forum is a good step--I don't generally post (I'm sure no one here recognizes me), but I thought I would send my support to you, from New Mexico to where you are, to let you know that you can start to sort this out, if you take it one day at a time. Focus on making it through and staying as strong as you can, one day at a time. If you can find a counselor at school or some other professional to talk to, that might make it easier. And no, it is not all right for anyone to do things to you without your consent, regardless of his age.

Hang in there. You can do this.