A very long story short, I had a childhood friend that is the only person that has ever known about my trauma (he found out himself). We never discussed it after that. After he got engaged last year, he told me that he had romantic and sexual feelings for me since we were young. I've always felt the same way about him. We flirt and end up having sex shortly after, supposedly with his fiance's permission (which, in retrospect, seems unlikely). After that we go back to being friends and he tells me that the reason he didn't reveal his feelings for me when we were younger was because he knew what happened to me. That was a very serious slap in the face, especially after spending upwards of six years wondering why he didn't return my feelings. Adding insult to injury, his attitude toward me changed 180 after that conversation. All he wanted to talk about was sex from then on and stopped caring about me as his friend. Eventually I had to end contact with him because of it. Not exactly how I would have wanted to end our friendship.

I find the fact that he didn't want me because of what I've been through very discouraging. Now I'm wondering how I can possibly let anyone else help or know what happened. I had just gotten to a point that I felt like I was ready to start facing things. Thoughts?