im so sorry for what has happened to you. i was raped too but i never told anyone and as far as i know now knows but me and him. my bestfriend didnt even know. it was not our fault that we were victims of such an ugly crime. i delt with my pain in silence and still deal with it to this day. i cant tell you that your pain will go away, i cant tell you that you will forget it ever happened. but i can encourage you to live your life as best you can. it wont be easy but life never is and we always have obsticals but if we work hard enough we can get past the obstical, and we will only become stronger. if you want to talk or even just want to vent feel free to send me a line. i hope that things get better for you.