i finally did it. i broke up with my bf of 3 yrs. we were having a ton of sex issues. he had erectile dysfunction for the past 2 1/2 yrs. although things in that dept were somewhat better after he went to see a sex therapist and they put him on all sorts of drugs, there was still apart of him that didn't seem normal to me. it truly traumatized me. ever since the problem started, he wouldn't always initiate sex or even appear to "want" me, judging his behavior and body language. i guess a girl just knows when she is not wanted. normally, i would still have to beg and cry for sex and he would just tell me that he was too busy studying and that he needed to be left alone. he would tell me that i was sabotaging his career and his life. but whenever he wanted to have sex, which was rare or not often (about twice a week maybe), suddenly i was suppose to put all my anger aside and be ready, willing and able. i don't think so. for so long i felt unwanted in the relationship, and i mean emotionally and intimately. sure he would buy me things to show that he cared, but that doesn't help fill the empty void that i felt for so long inside. i was becoming extremely depressed all the time. in fact, he admitted that he was depressed and started taking zoloft too. he never really wanted to go out and just have fun. i normally had to force him to go with me anywhere. he just wasn't living life and he was starting to drag me down into depression with him. i don't know how i feel right now. i don't know if i made the right choice. but i had to give it a try. i just had to break out of my shell and my comfort zone. i had to live and be free. i felt trapped for so long. only God knows what the future holds for me now. i leave it in his hands. i'm too shocked and saddened by how things turned out. i don't know what to think. i just want to be happy and i wasn't when i was with him.