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Originally Posted by catrules
I can understand the feeling of no connection. I particularly have a hard time with this when I am on a depression swing. One of the hardest things for me has been that when I am like this, I feel disconnected from my beautiful 2 year old son. It often feels like I am babysitting a good friend's child. Makes me feel even worse.
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Yes, like a robot doing what I would do if I could feel more. I remember when my oldest was born, I couldn't feel anything, and couldn't understand what was wrong with me. As the depression passed, I felt connected. But I have to ask myself, if depressed I don't feel connected, manic the connection is only euphoria, and the moderate mood is medicated. How can I possibly experience a connection as real?