In movies have people that feel disconnected, it's normal sometimes isn't it?depressed people almost always feel disconnected, and I am almost always depressed. It doesn't take a genius to realize I won't have normal relationships, and I really don't want to waste the time of the people who can. I enjoy seeing people together whose relationship works. It comforts me. I like to see people happy.

I think the most connected I ever felt was when I was manic, anxious, and freaking out, and my son just hugged me. It felt like everything painful was fell out, miraculously suddenly I felt safe, everything was going to be okay. But it felt weird, because I was supposed to be doing that for him.

Do you ever feel like you are going through the motions? Most people don't worry too much maybe, because they know it will pass. What if it didn't pass? What if the older they got the worse it got and they were looking at a future without feeling?
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