[quote=TheByzantine;1257174]Hello, Lostforevermore. Do you have a psychiatrist and therapist? What you are talking about is serious. Please get the help you need now. Take a chance on having a better life. Do it today.

I have starting seeing a counselor and she has been helping me with some of these issues, but it's hard for me to be completely honest with someone. I have been more honest on these posts then I have been able to be with my conselor in person. I don't know it's just hard for me to be honest and tell her how bad it is for me...it's almost like I don't want her to think bad of me. I think if I tell her how bad it is she would want to put me in a center for a while and then my family will find out how sad I am...and I don't really want to tell my family. I don't want them to think bad of me and be upset. But the counselor I have been seeing has been able to help...she is the one who told me about this site and told me that maybe talking to other people who feel the way I do might help me.