Thanks amante, It is torture forsure. Im taking one step at a time,one day at a time. Ya know?

Tring to stay as positive as possible,but all this umm,BS kinda lets some of the negitive crap in. That is where the nightmares come in and the horrible panic attacks.

I am on agressive theorpahy (sp?) for now,once a week. I said today I was not going to cry cause my sinues hurt to bad. SO we talked about other stuff besides just my kids .Although I did end up crying in the end.,it was still a good session.

I have to stop going to the FB page,cause when I read on my daugthers site that they were less than 5 miles from where I live,that kinda startied the night torrors,and the overwhemling panic attacks at the begining.

I am glad I found this forum tho. Lots of supportive ppl here.