I swear that I have two brains. I have one brain that is logical and takes over most of the time and makes sure I do homework and wash dishes and pay bills. But then there is a second brain that seems to take over when I get depressed. It doesn't listen to logic, or to my other brain. My one brain can be yelling and screaming that something doesn't make sense, but my second brain thinks that other things are quite logical. Even though I can know that they wouldn't be logical. Or I would know what my T would say in response to it. Like right now I have been having really bad urges to cut. My logical brain says that it isn't a good idea because of all the bad things that it can cause. But my other brain says that if it will get rid of the stress then what is the problem? My logical brain says that my T would not think it was a good idea. But my other brain says why is something that is going to make me feel better a bad thing? It isn't like I'm hurting anyone else. And I just want the pain to go away. And I even know that when I feel depressed, that when I feel better I can't even really access the same thought patterns and make them make sense, it's like my brain just shifts. It is like the second brain takes over and the logical one is in a coma or something. Partly there but not able to take control except for basics like school and house and etc. Why do I have these two brain? Does anyone else feel like they are fighting themselves? I feel like I'm sliding.