Hi captain123 and welcome to pc! I'm BP II too. In regards to your question... truly happy? Unmedicated? Yeah, in the past year, but I was definitely hypomanic at the time ("I don't need meds, everything's fabulous!" Then came the crash...you know the drill...). With meds that are working, I have to say that I am truly happy atm. Still, there are days when getting out of bed is a question mark. A struggle. But things even out through the day far far more than they used to.
"Before this all started" is another question altogether... I was only accurately diagnosed w/in the past year, but it's been going on for like 30 years and I can't honestly remember the good times so much as the bad. Sooo, then the question becomes before the diagnosis and meds... well, let's just say it wasn't good. That I wouldn't feel that way is no loss. I don't *want* to feel the way I did before that. It was gawdawfulhorrible, with spells of overblown spending/project starting/just flippin' crazy ***** ideas in between. Anyway, yeah.
This is a great site for support. It's fabulous in that way. A nice place to not feel so alone in the things that we go through. Again, welcome and looking forward to your posts!
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