I feel like I'm never going to be normal. That I'm never going to be able to live a normal life. Instead I am always going to be terrified of everything. I didn't used to be like this. I used to love going out and doing things. But now I'm too afraid of something bad happening. But at the same time I feel guilty for feeling this way. My attack wasn't that bad. I wasn't raped. People have been through so much more and dealt with it fine. I am attacked and I can't even keep from jumping at noises. I have nightmares and avoid anything that might possibly lead to thoughts of intimacy. It makes me feel dirty. I feel guilty for being such a whiner about something that was over so quickly and given that my memory of the event is spotty, why is it causing me so many problems. I feel guilty for having so many problems. I feel like it takes attention away from people who have survived much worse experiences.
Any advice? Please don't condemn me.