I'm here at home alone...not alone, I guess a better word would be lonely. I don't know the best word for it. My bf is here with me but I still feel so alone. I could be in a room full of people who care about me and love me and I'd still feel alone.

I want to reach out to someone...someone who knows this feeling of total and utter aloneness. I got the internet to keep in touch with people, but alas I am alone once more. My bf knows there is something wrong, but I cannot tell him because I don't know why I'm feeling this way.

He's always wanting to cuddle, and touch me, and do stuff together, but right now, as strange as it may sound I want to be alone, but not alone. Do you get it? Probably not. I'm making no sense at all, I know it.