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Jan 20, 2010, 01:46 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2009
Location: Fringes of the bell-shaped curve
Posts: 779
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   (((((((((Everyone)))))))))) Thank you all for your kind words, support, and understanding.
I'm still struggling with this - still very uncomfortable; however, I want you all to understand that my discomfort is no reflection on anyone here. I do know that this is a trust thing. I think that perhaps I have become over-sensitized having experienced so many devastating betrayals of my trust during the last 11 years by my family members, friends, former employer, insurance companies, Texas social service agencies and healthcare providers, and even my own attorney (who still has not refunded my retainer or sent me my file as he promised), as well as having had a few emotionally-traumatic experiences recently here at PC.
On the upside, I do now have in my possession enough of my Michigan medical records to prove beyond any question that I have not fabricated or "mis-remembered" anything, and that my family members have lied about my personal and medical history to my Texas healthcare providers and everyone else in order to defame and discredit me so that my siblings could get control of my 1/3 share of the inheritance in our mother's will and to protect themselves from being exposed as the abusers they truly are. At least now I can finally get a new primary care physician who will have the real facts in hand before branding me and treating me like a lunatic and criminal based solely on my family's petty, false, malicious gossip, and I can receive treatment for my immune-system disorder and other chronic medical conditions.
Even though I am happy about and somewhat relieved by this, I'm still so apprehensive and so tired - feel like I have been taking a beating every moment of the past 11 years by the very people and organizations that were supposed to be dedicated to acting in my best interest and advocating for me. Instead, they all betrayed their ethics and my trust, and violated my rights, then concealed their misconduct at my expense having deemed my life to be of such insignificant consequence as to be forfeit. So much betrayal, pain, damage, and loss - I feel like a building on the verge of collapsing into dust because it's foundation has become too compromised.
This is all I can say for now - too overwhelmed to continue. Again, thank you all for your support. Later, lynn09 
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
Last edited by lynn09; Jan 20, 2010 at 05:20 PM.
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