Lynn09,
Sending you cyber hugs because you sure sound like you need them today. There's a line in the movie "Bridges of Madison County" that is "Do what you need to do in this life to be happy" If the forums and posting is causing too much pain, then in your heart you must do what feels right. Taking a break, not reading the pain of others maybe what you need. The posting becomes so addictive sometimes and it's hard not to be so consumed by other peoples situations. Perhaps you can log onto different sections of the PC website and find positive postings to reply to, things like parenting, spiritual etc... anyway, people totally understand and can relate to what you are feeling. Sending positive vibes your way.